i need to get out more.

after a six hour car ride.

[it should have been four. stupid traffic.]

and much consideration.

i have finally come up with my top ten favorite bands.

one: regina spektor

two: metric

three: beirut

four: bon iver

five: the shins

six: mumford + sons

seven: grizzly bear

eight: vampire weekend

nine: she + him

ten: ratatat

i love and appreciate all sorts of music.

and have tons of favorite songs by other artists.

but these are my favorite bands/artists.

and i listen to them all the time.

you might be wondering: why is this loser so obsessed with music lately?

well, i can answer that for you.

it’s one of the only things getting me through college right now. music is my escape from all the reading, the constant pressure of class, the whole social aspect of it all. i don’t mind byu, but i hate provo.

i love salt lake too much.

and maybe i’m just familiar with salt lake and don’t want to accept the fact that i live in provo.

i just miss skiing. and familiarity. and my family.

the president of byu freaked me out today.

i went to the devotional today [he spoke].

and basically the message i got was this:

you come to byu to get married and start an eternal family and live up to the plan of salvation.

screw marriage. i’m only eighteen.

to continue with off subject topics... 

i have two goals to reach to my college experience most memorable.

one: blow my rape whistle and scream RAPE at the top of my lungs in a middle of a crowd and just run off.

two: put portable speakers in my backpack. BLAST ‘rebel girl’ by bikini kill. and ride a razor scooter around campus.

but oh how i wish i had the confidence to do such things. 

in my mind i would have done it by now.

but in all honesty, i just feel like i don’t have the courage. sucks for me. because i would be the coolest girl on campus.

one day though. and i will do it. i'm not just saying this.

i've realized that all i do is listen to music and blog about my life and how i don't do anything.

i need to get out more.