story of my life pretty much.

ron f@%king swanson you are my hero.

one of my favorite buster moments

i'm currently obsessed with space.

and mountains. red rock cliff kind.

a few of my favorite animals

i love love love stars.

and cats. hipster cats.

the men of one of my most favorite movies

can we just admire the awesomeness of this print? 

i'm obsessed with them both.

be my boyfriend. now. please?

pretty much my love life summed into one phrase.

i just find this awkwardly adorable.

butterflies are awesome

links! above! my blog has links! and it only took me forever to figure it out.
go me. now my blog feels pretty.
anywho...my summer is just as boring as ever. still.
oh, and my neighbors had this awesome butterfly in their backyard yesterday.
it was huge.

meh

it's snowing a lot today (at least in the mountains).

and i want to go skiing. really bad. and i have no monies or a car. fml.

also, my car broke again.

and i have to replace the whole engine and i don't know if we can afford that. fml.

i'm sleepy.

i'm sick of school.

i'm sick of learning.

and tests. and research.

i'm sick of creepy people who won't leave me alone.

and i'm slightly getting sick again. fml.

i just wanna be home. and skiing. with a hawt boy that skis.

blehhh. summer where art thou?

it's being one of those dreary, boring winters.
normally i love winter. i love snow. i love skiing. i love being warm inside when it's cold outside. mostly i just love snow and skiing.
but there hasn't been any snow. i don't have a ski pass. i have nothing fun to do.
it's still cold outside. so i don't want to be outside.
i've been sick with a cold. so i have no motivation to even go running.
so it's boring. i hate it. i'm getting fat. and i wish it was summer.
and i'm sick of winter clothes. i hate my clothes.
i want more clothes. but i'm too poor to buy even cheap new clothes.
or fabric to attempt to sew...since i'm a domestic goddess now...

on the bright side. i got a 90 percent on my comms 230 test (aka intro to advertising/my major).
i couldn't be happier.

and new music soon.

tranquilize me i'm crazy. but mostly bored.

naturally i'm bored out of my mind right now.
but i was thinking. if my life were a movie. it would be pretty entertaining.
weird artsy/crafty, nerdy, freak girl with kind of cool clothes and insanely rad skiing skills. devastatingly extreme lack of boys. countless awkward moments. i'd watch it.
and then maybe to spice it up with some fiction. i'd find my true love. he'd come to me on a unicorn, wearing a wolf shirt, wielding a nerf gun and copious amounts of knowledge pertaining to harry potter and all my other favorite things. and then we'd go skiing, fall in love, and live happily ever after, and maybe eat at taco bell for dinner.
PERFECT BOY, WHERE ARE YOU?

i should probably do my french homework.
and get a life.

it's like house arrest, but not.

i need a new craft to do.
i have made numerous garlands and streamers and headbands.
i'm at the point where i wish i could sew clothes.
but i can't sew to save my life.
but maybe i'll try. i've got ample amounts of time.
i could take up jewelry making again. or i could go thrifting.
maybe birdwatching?
i'll figure something out.

and then again. i should probably get out of my house.
i work from 8:30 to 12:30 every day. and then i come home and do one or more of the following:
1. craft.
2. eat.
3. sleep.
4. watch tv shows on netflix.
5. and on the very rare and minuscule occasion, i run (or go to the gym).

it's not all bad, but it's boring.
i need adventure. i need risk. i need boys.
i need to get out of my house.

summer update

not much goes on in my life.
i go to work everyday.
i have been recovering from a nasty cold.
i went rollerblading today (and had a few cough attacks).
i have been listening to some new tunes (new music post to come soon).
i signed up for classes for next semester (which will be in paris).
i went to market street for breakfast with some friends this past saturday.
i cleaned my room (but you can't tell anymore).
i got some new shorts that i love love love!
i have been loving my bunny (even though his nails are sharp and he scares easily).

hopefully there will be more exciting things to come.
let's pray. i'm not going to be a hermit this summer.

ukuleles and duck ponds.

i have no life.

it is friday night and i'm in my dorm blogging. no big deal.
one would think a college freshman, like myself, would be out and about.
much into the late hours of the night.
but no. i'm laying on my bed. typing this post.
but that's not all i've been doing.
in fact, for the past three hours or so, i've been playing the ukulele.
i will not lie. i'm fairly new to the ukulele.
i've only been playing a couple months.
and then my ukulele broke.
i ordered a new one and it's currently in salt lake.
and i'm borrowing emily's right now.
i'm getting really good.
so now i can officially start my band.

today was fun.
emily and i went exploring and took pictures at various places.
sammy's. the duck pond. a stairwell in stover.
it was rather pleasant and i hope to go again soon.
here are a few of my most favorite pictures.

hot like mexico rejoice.

sweet potato lovin'.

our friendship consists of copious amounts of awkwardness.

emily.

myself.

oh the awkwardness.

emily again.

school girl in college.

i love old buildings.

emily loves ducks.

i just want good food.

boredom.

that is what i feel right now.

my fridays are nice because i finish class by eleven.

but that doesn't stop the boredom from settling in.

i'm currently sitting on my 'much too high' bed,

blogging about the boredom that consumes my life at this current moment.

so what am i to do with the rest of my day?

who knows...

maybe i'll take a nap. read perhaps. listen to music.

i was hoping college would be full of adventure.

but i don't think i should count dorm-sitting and reading textbooks as an adventure.

and maybe it'll get better. in fact, it probably will. 

but not right now.

i won't lie.

this week has been quite fun.

i've met nice people who are fun to be around, gotten homework done, had free time on my hands.

this weekend should be full of fun and festivities.

apparently there is a 70s themed dance tonight. so we're going to the D.I. later today.

but on to something completely off topic.

i'm craving pizza right now.

it sounds so delicious, especially because i don't really want to eat at the cannon center ever again.

a girl in my writing class this morning told us that she found a cricket in her salad the other day.

i've been eating salad with lunch and dinner for the past week.

my appetite just trickled down the drain and now i just want pizza.

or a burrito from chipotle. 

but the closest chipotle is by my house in salt lake.

five guys sounds delicious.

and now i'm really hungry.

i need to get out more.

after a six hour car ride.

[it should have been four. stupid traffic.]

and much consideration.

i have finally come up with my top ten favorite bands.

one: regina spektor

two: metric

three: beirut

four: bon iver

five: the shins

six: mumford + sons

seven: grizzly bear

eight: vampire weekend

nine: she + him

ten: ratatat

i love and appreciate all sorts of music.

and have tons of favorite songs by other artists.

but these are my favorite bands/artists.

and i listen to them all the time.

you might be wondering: why is this loser so obsessed with music lately?

well, i can answer that for you.

it’s one of the only things getting me through college right now. music is my escape from all the reading, the constant pressure of class, the whole social aspect of it all. i don’t mind byu, but i hate provo.

i love salt lake too much.

and maybe i’m just familiar with salt lake and don’t want to accept the fact that i live in provo.

i just miss skiing. and familiarity. and my family.

the president of byu freaked me out today.

i went to the devotional today [he spoke].

and basically the message i got was this:

you come to byu to get married and start an eternal family and live up to the plan of salvation.

screw marriage. i’m only eighteen.

to continue with off subject topics... 

i have two goals to reach to my college experience most memorable.

one: blow my rape whistle and scream RAPE at the top of my lungs in a middle of a crowd and just run off.

two: put portable speakers in my backpack. BLAST ‘rebel girl’ by bikini kill. and ride a razor scooter around campus.

but oh how i wish i had the confidence to do such things. 

in my mind i would have done it by now.

but in all honesty, i just feel like i don’t have the courage. sucks for me. because i would be the coolest girl on campus.

one day though. and i will do it. i'm not just saying this.

i've realized that all i do is listen to music and blog about my life and how i don't do anything.

i need to get out more.

i want a bbq bacon cheeseburger. not gauze.

well. i got my wisdom teeth out this morning.
and to be quite honest. i feel fine. that is...i can't feel anything.
i have yet to feel the real pain, but hopefully the painkillers will do me justice. i HATE pain.
spiders and pain. my two biggest fears.
i'm sick of having gauze in my mouth. my face is de-numbing and it tingles whenever i touch the lower half of my face.
i'm really, really, really, really, really, really, really craving a burrito from chipolte and a bbq bacon cheeseburger from five guys. but i can't eat anything for a few days.
today i've eaten a caribbean passion smoothie from jamba juice [my favorite], jello, chocolate milk, and a strawberry/peach shake. it's not bad, but i miss food.

i'm watch angus, thongs, and perfect snogging right now. i love this movie. it inspires to jet off to england and find a cute british boy and be perfectly happy.
too bad i can't...yet. maybe one day. i'm going to go to england for sure though. i do not know when, but it WILL be soon.
i'm surprise i'm not tired. i haven't been able to sleep at all today and i really could use a nice nap.

ha...i just realized that as i read what i write aloud in my head, i'm speaking with a british accent. and it's not just because i'm watching a british movie...i do this all the time. and i love it.
i'm going to try and take a nap now.
hopefully the adventure starts up next week. i've got two [maybe three] weeks of summer left, and i'm going to make them epic...maybe.
au revoir.

i did stuff this weekend. but who knows if people actually read this.

it hit me today that this has been the most boring summer in the history of my life.
i have done absolutely nothing epic, and i had planned on this being the most epic summer of my life.

i planned on going on road trips, going camping, going to idaho [which i will in a couple weeks], going swimming in lakes, having fun, having parties, having romances, having the time of my life, being awesome, doing epic stuff. but no...

i've sat at home.
sure, i've earned a little money. but i've been home all summer. and it absolutely sucks.
no trips. no parties. no romance. no awesome, epic, fun. absolutely nothing.

i did get the chance to hang out with my friend, mary, who got her wisdom teeth out a couple days ago. we went to jamba juice and then her house [where i watched the after-surgery video and nearly peed myself], and then we went to my house [with daniel] and watched malcolm in the middle, and then we drove around and talked. i really do enjoy talking with my friends. it's great fun and very relaxing. it's nice to get things out and talk about anything and everything. overall, tonight was a very nice break from the chaos of moving, family, friends, and life.

funny story.
two days ago i went to the dollar theater with alexandra, daniel, and jackson. we decided to see how to train your dragon [which i have been dying to see] and about twenty minutes into the movie, the screen blacks out and all you can hear is sound. it went on like this for five minutes when the workers finally came in and stopped the movie. we sat there for another fifteen minutes waiting for them to fix the movie, but it never happened. the screen spazzed out and made a bizarre zapping noise, and then the lights began to flicker. and if that wasn't scary enough, i didn't get my $1.50 back.
we went to del taco after walking out of the theater.
i got a spicy chicken quesadilla and del inferno sauce. bad combination, seeing as my carmel mocha shake didn't help the burning sensation. all and all...an ok night.

the next night.
i went back to the dollar theater to see letters to juliet.
as cheesy as it was...i loved it. and i want to go to italy more than ever!
really i just want an italian boy. or a british boy. or a greek boy. or a boy.
for now i can only dream...and wait.
but the screen didn't mysteriously disappear for this movie.

speaking of italy.
i was looking through a magazine today called elegant homes and i found my dream home.
it looks like it would appear in the italian, french, or english countryside.
that is where i would like to live. or visit. or have a second home. but this house is made of stone, two stories, a fountain in front and a beautiful courtyard.
for now i can only dream.

new music? i think yes.
i was bored today. *surprise...*
i went to blalocks indie/rock playlist and downloaded three from last year...that's like almost four hundred new songs to listen to. i'm not even halfway through the first one i downloaded.
i have this..."technique"...where i go through each playlist and pick out the good songs from the bad.
i don't want to be cocky and say i have supreme taste in music, but...i do.
i just really like what i listen to and pretty soon i will create a new list of songs for you to check out.
even though "you" is like two people...i give a shout out to my two followers.
who knows if people actually read this stuff.
feel free to follow, comment, etc.
that would be most excellent.

let's just pack up and move already.

another long day of packing...
just for kicks, i'm going to type in small caps.

tomorrow the movers move our furniture and then i will officially be out of my house. it'll be so weird to walk through an empty house filled with memories since tenth grade. i've always liked this house, but it hasn't been my favorite. i definitely liked the michigan avenue house the best. partly because i had an semi-attic bedroom. and i just love those.

i've had a lot of time to think while i pack [or sit around in my case. i won't lie, i'm incredibly lazy]. but while i "packed" i thought about college. it's coming up way too soon. i'm really excited, but i'm really nervous. last night i watched a movie [airplane...such a classic!] with one of my closest friends. we had our laughs during the movie, but after it was over, we just talked. it was nice to talk, seeing as i hadn't seen her in a week or so, but we talked about wisdom teeth, friends, and college.

i honestly cannot wait to meet new people and start all over. a "fresh" start as some call it. i'm done dealing with drama and all the problems that comes with it. i listen to my sister [now a junior in high school] and all of her friend and boy problems, and i think to myself: "i'm soooo glad i don't have to deal with this anymore." graduating from high school is like receiving a whole new freedom. and it's a wonderful feeling! liberating almost!

it's only been half of summer, but that means that summer is halfway through. in a month and a half i'll be going to away to college. it's weird to think about. i feel that it's been such a boring summer, because i literally have done nothing. everyone is going on trips, doing fun stuff like boating and adventuring, while i'm stuck at home doing nothing. packing of course...but that's no fun.

i get my wisdom teeth out on august 6th. so either before and/or after i'm leaving. probably to idaho, but i'm getting out of salt lake for awhile. with or without friends.

and now, i must go finish packing, for tomorrow, the movers come.

I'm blogging at unnecessary hours and increasing my lack of sleep.

I'm blogging at unnecessary hours and increasing my lack of sleep, but...
I've just been in a bloggy mood lately, so I've been blogging a lot. I'm sure my few followers enjoy hearing from me though. Feel free to comment, follow, etc. It's nice to get feedback about my life every once in awhile. Just saying...
Today was mighty boring. Again.
I scanned photos, packed up a majority of my room, and ate food. This is no lifestyle for me, so I've decided to undergo a life changing...change. That is, I'm going to become less lazy, I'll work and save money, clean out my closet and start afresh with my wardrobe, and become more aware of my surroundings and myself. I'll be myself while changing myself. Ooooohh.
I'm excited for college. I'm nervous, but I'm excited. In all honestly, I'm just excited to meet new people, go on adventures, and pretty much just be awesome. I registered for classes exactly 24 hours ago. And that is a small factor contributing to my excitement.
My allergy meds are making me absolutely tired. But I have to take them everyday or else I'll be sneezing, itching, and coughing for the rest of my life. It's awful. I might go for a bike ride tomorrow. Someone took out my beach cruiser and I saw it in the backyard, it inspired me to want to ride it more often.
I really need to go on an adventure. I need something to do.
As soon as we are done moving, I'm going straight to Idaho, and for who knows how long.

I wish it was November 19th. Then July 15th.

It's been a rather long day. Long because I haven't done anything. At all.
Sure, I scanned photos for my dad and took a shower. But that's all. I am currently sitting on the couch watching Harry Potter and the Order of the Phoenix. Speaking of Harry Potter, I watched the newest trailer for the seventh movie. I wish it was November. And then instead of it being November 20th the next day, it would be July 15th.
And boy do I have plans.
I'm dressing up and going to the midnight premiere. I'll be down in Provo for that I think, but when I come home for Thanksgiving, I'm going to throw the most epic Harry Potter Party to happen in the Salt Lake Valley. I don't really know my plans quite yet. In fact I won't know until tickets come on sale. Click the link below to see the trailer for yourself. It is fantastic, and the movie will be even more fantastic.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=_EC2tmFVNNE

I found this little treasure outside my window today while I was scanning photos.
It made my day.

I didn't know German Shepherds could shed that much.

My cousin and I took my aunt grocery shopping today. It was a lot of fun, and I just like grocery shopping.
I got a new car the other day. It is a black Subaru Outback and the previous owner had two German Shepherds. An hour and a half later, I still can't seem to vacuum it all up. I didn't know German Shepherds could shed that much!
I would like to apologize to anyone offended by my last post, which I have fixed.
I feel really bad. Like really, really, really bad.
When you've sat at home for five consecutive days [and nights], you're mood slips to the bad side, and you get the urge to post stuff and vent. I was in an extremely bad mood yesterday. So I've decide that blogging when I'm angry won't happen anymore, and I'll save my bad days for my journal...if I can find it. So, once again, sorry.
I’ve noticed lately that I’m not “all the way there” a lot, and I tend to act before I think. I don’t understand why, just my nature I guess, but I’m trying to change. I many make mistakes, but so does everyone else. I’m trying to change that too. I’ve sort of made a “goal” for college, and that is to have a fresh start, start all over, and think before I do something.  I’ve realized that not only can I hurt myself with mistakes, but I can hurt others as well. Usually I don’t mean to and I just don’t think about out. Many times I don’t realize the right thing till something has already happened, and then I realize how stupid I was, and then I feel really bad. Like really bad. Because I hate it when I hurt others, it truly is an uncomfortable feeling.
I'm in a better mood now. I just hate being bored.
I want to go on an adventure. Anywhere. I just don't want to be at home. Summer, please get better.

Hooray for summer...?

It's summer, and believe it or not, I'm bored to the extreme.
For the past three days I've been sitting in my basement playing Super Mario Galaxy 2.
I did go see Toy Story 3. It was probably one of the better movies I've seen this year, and I even teared up at the end, which is rare. But I give it five stars.
You know what DOESN'T deserve five stars?
The Lakers winning the playoffs. They deserve a one way ticket to hell, especially Kobe. And Gasol can go with him. There truly is nothing good about the Lakers and I don't see why the refs and announcers favor them so much. They're Hollywood Divas, not NBA Stars.
The Jazz are going to win next year. I have that sort of faith.
This summer has been boring so far. I do hope it gets better. I think it will.